*this is why I’m in therapy*

This post will be quick and dirty. It’s the last 10 in 10 post with iHomeschool Network and I don’t want to miss it.

I’ve written and tweeted random things about me before, but today I’m going to try to share something new.

10 Things Only My Closest Friends *Might* Know About Me

  1.  I can get overwhelmed with life before I finish my coffee. I see this as a weakness, being easily overwhelmed with even the most basic of days. I’ve been told I just try to take on too much and that anyone else would be overwhelmed with it all. *this is why I’m in therapy*
  2. I confused my counselor recently when he realized I really, really, really was very much past and moved on from being molested as a kid. I had other things to talk about with him, THAT did not need to be discussed. I wasn’t hiding feelings, I really have just worked through it all already. *this is not why I’m in therapy*
  3. I will tell you I’m good and capable and I will get excited over doing a good job, until you ask me to do it again. Then I’ll promptly give you a hundred reasons why I suck, why it wasn’t really correct or good to start with, and I’ll panic fully expecting to fail and let you down. *this is why I’m in therapy*
  4. I am not as strong as I appear. I want to cry. I want to fall on the floor and scream “it’s not fair” a lot. It is exhausting always being the one to say “God’s got this, it will be okay”. To fall down would be to let others down, especially God. I have faith and I know laying down and whining about it won’t help. *this is why I’m in therapy*
  5. My cup of patience is cracked and leaking. Unless you are being impatient. Then I grab my duct tape and wrap myself up. I can have the patience of Job if I’m trying to help YOU be more patient. When it comes to myself, see number 4. *this is why I’m in therapy*
  6. I love to wash dishes. No, you don’t see a counter full of dirty dishes. It’s your imagination. {I love to wash them, I hate to put them away, so the drying mat is full of clean dishes, so I can’t wash more dishes} *the fact that I can explain this… is why I’m in therapy*
  7. I don’t like pie, pudding, turnovers, filled donuts, fruit bars, jello, yogurt, or duck. It’s all squoooshy and slimy and gooey. It’s a texture thing. *this is not why I’m in therapy, but hubby thinks I should be, just so I’ll make them for him to eat more often*
  8. I panic at the thought of running out of toilet paper. I can go without milk, bread, and many other staples but toilet paper…. must.have.tp. *this is not why I’m in therapy, mostly because my counselor doesn’t really know about this yet*
  9. I hide a lot of anger. I’m a closet mad woman. I battle with arrows of frustration, resentment, and a desire to control it all {because then it would be done right}. I know these are trying to knock me off my path and that the closer I walk with God the more I will battle these arrows. I pray a lot. *this is why I’m in therapy*
  10. At least once every day, I wish Y2K had happened. No electricity. No internet. Back to the days of Little House all over again. {sort of} I’d lose my blog. I’d take up needlepoint. Cooking would require chopping wood. The only thing I would miss, would be you: my online family. I love you all. *and this is not why I’m in therapy, it’s perfectly normal to love people you have never actually met*

This post is a participation in the “10 in 10” link up with iHomeschool Network.

This blog hop is inspired by our dear friend and sister Angie of Many Little Blessings. We would love to have you join us during our ten week adventure. Please link up at Angie’s blog by clicking the image below.

One Comment

  • Gidget Reply

    Oh, my goodness – could I ever relate to you on so many of those things! I am actually in the process of crashing from my latest “I can do it all” experience…. maybe you will have to share what you learn in therapy  lol

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