5 Minute Friday: Afraid

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Wow, what a day for me to start 5 minute Fridays. Afraid.

I will fail again. I will do all this work and spend all that money on healthy foods and I will tell people “no, I can’t help you right now because I have to workout” and I will still fail. I will stay fat. I will stay tired. I will stay feeling sick.

I will fail again at trying to get this house in order. I will let the overwhelming feeling I get when I look around totally suck me into a pit where I just sit here and think of ways to fix it but never actually get up and do any of it.

I will forget how much God loves me and how I should be offering that love to others and I will let those nasty thoughts and judgements fill my head again. I will say the word again. I will say that I hate. Then the guilt will bring me down until I cry.

I’m afraid that if I start acting like I believe in myself that someone will come show me how wrong I am to think I am good enough to do anything. Because that’s what always happens. So why wouldn’t hit happen again.

Some things just can’t be fixed, no matter how badly you want them to be fixed. Some times the thought of having to continue living with it is unbearable. But you can’t make it go away.

STOP.

my time is up.

*hugs*

Love and Blessings, The Tadey

http://www.ahearteninglife.com/ Christy Willard

Thanking God that there is always hope! Sometimes it’s all in the way you look at things. You see failure, God sees promise. I just came to grips with (and blogged about) the realization that we are all valuable simply because we were created in God’s image. That it doesn’t matter whether you are fat or thin, whether your house is clean or dirty, whether you make mistakes or find success, you have value. I don’t know you, but I know you are beautiful! God doesn’t make mistakes!

Christy @ A Heartening Life
http://www.ahearteninglife.com
- http://www.chaosappreciation.com/ Lisa B….The Tadey
  
  Amen to that Christy! I should write that on my bathroom mirror!
Jerri Miller

Oh, hugs to you!

I think it is all a matter of keeping focus and not listening to those voices (even if it is your own). 2 Corinthians 10:5 “Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ” Any thought that tells you different, say that is not my thought, the bible tells me I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
- http://www.chaosappreciation.com/ Lisa B….The Tadey
  
  Amen, Thank you Jerri, I’m adding this verse to my list of favorites.
AJ Collins

Thanks for stopping by over at One Part Joy One Part Circus! I really resonated with this post. I feel the same way! I want to stand up and lose the weight… to do something daring and find the person I have been in the past… but I allow fear to paralyze me.

I should stop. You should too. I think you can do it! Even if I don’t know you. Look at all you do. A mama of 4, a home educator?? You must be amazing! New follower here. Really love your blog name too!
- http://www.chaosappreciation.com/ Lisa B….The Tadey
  
  Thanks AJ! I’m not amazing…. I DO have an amazing God and Creator that strengthens me. FEAR NOT!